Rehab – 1

February 21st, 2013

February 21st, 2013

Rehab Goal’s 2 Week Journey

February 21st, 2013

 

This is me experimenting with the first picture preceding my Rehab series.  It is Loch Ness seen from the cabin we were staying in overlooking the Loch.  It was the only picture I did. Prior to my Rehabilitation.  A beautiful but tinged with sadness family holiday.

Alistair Campbell @ Aleister Crowley’s

February 20th, 2013

Alistair IW Campbell @ Aleister Crowley’s

Apocalyptic Beast

October 8th, 2009

I think we all have our own personal ‘Armageddon’.  In this piece I have tried to depict  some of the forces released in me that are a direct result of my submerged unrest and anger, which have always been in an uneasy and potentially eruptive state.

I’m trying to break down the walls of my denial, a denial which has caused so much unhappiness and addictive behaviour in my life.

This seven headed beast was in ‘embryo’ form in the preceding picture, but here, in this fourth piece in my Serial Cycle series, it is fully developed.

Apocalyptic Beast (2009)

Apocalyptic Beast (2009)

(78cm x 56cm; felt tips, pilot pens, gold & silver pens plus, oil pastels and Indian inks on watercolour paper. 2009)

Beyond Appearances

October 8th, 2009

The classic abuse situation where everything appears normal on the TV screen, while chaotic forces are raging inside and around.

The toy Corgi and Dinky cars are what I used to buy with money I was given for my silence and complicity. I developed a smokescreen to cover up where I got the money from since my Mum could barely make ends meet and there wasn’t any extra for occasional toys.

The cars became ‘totemic’ and I kept them all in their boxes in a larger box I made and decorated myself. This had car badges on it (stolen from cars) and some my brother brought home from the garage he worked in.

This is the third piece in my Serial Cycle series.

Beyond Appearances (2009)

Beyond Appearances (2009)

(78cm x 56cm; felt tips, pilot pens, gold & silver pens plus, oil pastels and Indian inks on watercolour paper. 2009)

Obama

October 8th, 2009

When I was watching the telly on the day Obama was taking his vows I realized it was such a moment in history – a black president. I immediately began to draw out his face in real time as he was being inaugurated.

I wanted the stars & stripes in the picture, and then I thought of the Moon landing and how they were in those pictures. 2009 is an anniversary for that time. The two events just came together. I did some research about the American Civil Rights Movement and some of the main heroes are written into the picture.

There is a figure out of the old Jason & The Argonauts film. Where the colossal god comes to life because Hercules has taken something from his tomb. I’ve always been completely fascinated by this bit of genius from Ray Harryhausen – and it seems to fit in with something huge moving in to life which is what this picture is about.

Obamma (2009)

Obamma (2009)

(78cm x 56cm. Felt tips and pilot pens on watercolour paper. Early 2009)

Silver Horses

October 8th, 2009

I love Pete Brown’s poetry.  He wrote most of the lyrics for the rock group CREAM.  It was a time of consciousness expansion and psychedelia – sometimes a small piece of Heaven would pop out in the Art.

I started this picture just before I traveled up to Glasgow.  It was something fun to do on the train journey both ways.

Silver_Horses

Silver Horses Ran Down Moonbeams (2009)

(22cm x 29cm; felt tips, pilot pens, silver pens. May 2009)

Coming Out

August 30th, 2009

This is the second in my Serial Cycle series. I feel this is fairly self-explanatory.  The creature is ungainly, the uncomfortableness of coming to terms with a massive problem.  I think the ugly duckling myth is working here too.  It’s all about the pain of breaking free from the cage, but which can also be the rebirth like a phoenix from an egg.

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Coming Out (2009)

(78cm x 56cm; felt tips, pilot pens, gold & silver pens plus, oil pastels and Indian inks on watercolour paper. 2009)

Malmoth The Wonderer

August 30th, 2009

The first picture in my Serial Cycle series.

The title of this piece come from the  Gothic masterpiece ‘Melmoth The Wanderer’ by Charles Maturin.  It is a novel about the darkness’s of the human soul.

The moth is a ‘Death’s Head’ moth.  I was inspired by the profound symbolism in the film ‘Silence of The Lambs’ to depict this particular moth.  The butterfly/moth symbolically can mean transformation, as well as the soul.  I chose a moth rather than a butterfly as a moth is generally a creature of the night.  Most domestic sexual abuse happens at night.

This is quite obviously a self portrait and I would hazard a guess that anyone who has suffered abuse as a child or indeed at any age will be able to ‘read’ and identify with this image easily.

The Dali/barber’s pole crutches supporting the cage are what they appear – crutches/support and also healing.  Barber’s were also akin to paramedics or first aiders in the past, amateur healers due to the scarcity of doctors – red for blood, white for the bandages.

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Malmoth the Wonderer (2009)

(78cm x 56cm; felt tips, pilot pens, gold & silver pens plus, oil pastels and Indian inks on watercolour paper. 2009)